Jillian Michaels, TV’s toughest trainer, has discovered an even tougher job than whipping people into shape: motherhood!

The Biggest Loser star says that juggling two kids, Lukensia, 3, and Phoenix, almost 1, has been a challenge, but it’s worth every minute of the chaos.  She shared with Fitness magazine, “I get up at 7 a.m. — after being up all night with the baby — and run around trying to get both kids diaper-changed, dressed and fed. Finally I’ll shower, and before I know it, I’ve got 50 emails to answer, and I need to leave for work.  At the end of the day, I come home, and I’m like, ‘Okay, let me bathe you, change you, feed you, read you books, put you to bed — wait, how am I supposed to do all this? Son of a b—-, this is hard!’”

Jillian also admits that finding patience for her three year old daughter’s emerging independence is a strain on her patience level.  Lukensia is at the point of insisting on doing things by herself, saying “Lu do, Lu do”.  Jillian shares, “It means you have to sit there for 20 minutes while she tries to put on a shirt. It kills me because I’ve got to go to work. Heidi gets mad at me: ‘How else is she going to learn how to put on her shirt?’ or ‘Don’t rush her, you’re rushing her!’”

“It makes me crazy, so I’ll just sit on the floor of the closet checking emails while Lu tries to figure out how to put on her shirt. It’s brutal, but I’m really trying. I guarantee it’s going to be their number one issue in therapy.”

Jillian also freely admits that her former clients can now say to her “I told you so!” because she gets that it’s nearly impossible.  “I used to say, ‘If you’re going to exercise, then you do it, and you do it 100 percent,’  Now if I’ve got to answer emails while I work out on the StairMaster, well, then that’s what it is. People can rub my nose in it, because it is so hard — so hard — to take care of yourself when you’re a parent.”



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